07 August 2002 - 1:20 a.m.

Somewhere between my bedroom and the post office, I lost my financial aid application for grad school.

Which basically means I can't go.

Oh, yes, I can request all the forms again, and send them in another several weeks late, and hope they'll give money to me over someone who actually asked for it in time.

Because life works that way.

But really, if there is no scholarship, there is nothing to pay for tuition. If there is no loan, there is nothing to pay for food and housing. If there is no car (something else I don't have/can't get), there is no getting to class.

I'm really beginning to think Hollins wasn't meant to be. And I'll be getting an MA next year, so, in the long run, will it matter that much?

It would have been nice to move to a new place and try new things, but, as I've already mentioned, it's not working out so well.

I'm going to bed hoping that everyone else's night is a bit less bleak.

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